i feel like crying

Monday, December 01, 2008
at 5:51:00 AM

it's been a week since i came back to school.
it's been ages since i updated this blog.
it's pathetic to see that my last post is on twilight.

so..... nothing extravagant about school. i go out during chem, sit and read or sleep during physics and bio. yeap, that's what i do in school. i do CWs for maths, but i dont do the HWs. and why is that? cuz i lost my pure maths book. it's not like i bought it or something but im glad that i dont have it. ~ im so so sorry suze..i didnt mean to lose it, but it just disappeared. along with the hideously thick bio pyp =D

i have a test coming up. a maths test. chptr 3 - 7 and i dont have the book yet. i've been planning to photocopy it but geezz, do i still need to study? no, scratch that. do i even bother doing the test? hmmm that's a thought right there..


first, i wont get any report card. or maybe i will, but the results arent going to be included.
second, im leaving next january.. im not even taking the sciences, why bother taking maths?
third, I DONT EVEN HAVE THE BOOK!

three very good reasons eyyy?? and better yet, these reasons can be used as reasons NOT to come to school anymore. but of course there's one really major and extremely important reason why im still going to school however damn boring it is. and that's FRIENDS.

yeah, that's right. i've got nothing to do at home. my mom complains everytime i turn the computer on. and lastly, i wanna be able to spend as much time with my friends before i go away. God knows how much i'll miss them.

i want to see what's janet up to with her RANDOM thoughts and actions.
i want to keep on talking about the TWILIGHT SAGA with bella.
i want to be there to see caroline's ISENK-NESS whether it's me she's doing it to or not.
i want to hold allison's "edward" COLD hands.
i want to hear all of angela's super RANDOM thoughts and laugh so freely at it.
i want to hear mickey's korean and her indonesian in her SUPER CUTE BUT WEIRD korean accent.
i want to hear akong-philip's RANTS that are extremely funny and random.
i want to see how steven keeps on being a PEST around allison and how he keeps on doing STUPID THINGS on purpose that would fed her up.
i want to COPY kenny's maths homework.
i want to see ho's super weird EXPRESSION that he does everyday.
i want to hear reyner's weird LAUGHTER in class.
i want to see allison's DORI MOUTH when she writes.
i want to hear ratna's "OF COURSE" and "PEGI MATII..."
i want to be HIGH in class with janet cuz of the waste beaker in the lab.
i want to LAUGH all day long with all of them.
i want to STILL be the gluey in UHU-STICKY GLUEY ... UHUEEYYY
i want to LAUGH at the boys' behaviour.
i want to DOR! bern.
i want to SKIP chinese together as a class.
i want to TELL everything to irene.
i want to see how ratna goes to school ubi HUNTING.
i want to PRETEND that i'm listening when im actually sleeping in class.
i want to be in DESPERATO mode together with allison.
i want to see the WEIRD POSES that mickey and reyner does when they sleep.
i want to STEAL caroline from ho while he's away watching.
i want to see the SUPER SWEET couple no other that my very own akong-angela.
i want to STILL be in the family that we made up.
i want to have all those people who left our class JOIN us back together.
i want to get together with the girls and GOSSIP.
i want to delay bern from SNEEZING.
i want to see how janet SEDUCED caroline and me.
i want to witness ratna's super CRAZY actions.
i want to have this TALK with the whole class and talk about people.
i want to feel that UNITY we have.
i want to hear daniel's ADVICES that makes him seem so wise.
i want to hear irene TEASE me and call me lemot.
i want to see ho's tyra banks walk on CELEBRITY.
i want to hear vina call me MEI.
i want to hear wilhan's IMITATION of russel peters.
i want to SING together in class like no one's ever listening.
i want to hear bella's sweet voice HUMMING a melody.
i want to laugh at philip's JOKE.
i want to WAKE bern up from his weird sleeping pose.
i want to call allison JAYUZZ again.
i want to know what ratna's up to NEXT.
i want to hit janet in the HEAD.
i want to hear susan's "josephiiiineeee" in her INDIAN accent.
i want to always have the FEAR that either caroline or angela is growing an inch taller than me.
i want to PLAY that "dibidibidip" game with mickey.
i want to call caroline PAPI and ho MOMMY.
i want to JOIN angela's bdae at pulau ayer.
i want to enjoy daniel's CHILDISH actions.
i want to see wilhan's OMPONG.
i want to eat crepes at school and call it KREPES.
i want to remember how i always think janet's older than me JUST CAUSE she's taller than me.
i want to SHOCK ho by reading as many 200 pages in school.
i want to talk about HGs with the girls.
i want to listen to the afternoon cabaret AGAIN and AGAIN.
i want to ask people if they want to PEE.
i want to SMILE my slightest happiness of not studying while the others did.
i want to do RANDOM things.
i want to REMEMBER them.



i DONT want them to CHANGE.
i DONT want them to FORGET me.
i DONT want to go AWAY.
i DONT want to REALIZE that im going to leave them.
i DONT want to BELIEVE that i have more or less three weeks left with them - not counting the holidays.
i DONT want to have to MISS them.
i DONT want all this to end. EVER.
as summer feels.
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